M K 9/30/22 M K 9/30/22

Changing Seasons, Changing Professions

Back at it after a much-needed “summer vacation”. I lost my job, took a month off, and will start my new job this coming Monday. Interviewing was an illuminating experience and with a 2/3 success rate in job offers, I feel like a valuable asset to all of the resource conservation organizations throughout the county.

M K 6/30/22 M K 6/30/22

Constant, Endless Rage

It’s a simple correlation. The worse things get, the worse I feel. I don’t want to rage and roar anymore. I don’t want to arm myself to the teeth. I simply want us to collectively enact solutions to shared problems and I grow angrier by the day as we backslide into homicidal patriarchy. If anyone knows where I can drink from a wellspring of compassion, let me know.

M K 5/19/22 M K 5/19/22

The Grief is Powerful and Exhausting

As much as I love my life and have plenty to live for, grief, rage, and soul-crushing exhaustion are always shimmering on the outskirts of my mind.

M K 4/19/22 M K 4/19/22

Hope Like a Hundred Thousand Suns. Calm Like a Mirrored Lake.

Jack and I celebrated our wedding on April 16th, 2022, and it was was PERFECT. Legendary. The best day of my entire life. All photos posted in this blog are from Madi Ellis Photography. You can view her work at madiellisphotography.com.

M K 3/19/22 M K 3/19/22

And I Think to Myself, “What a Tumultuous World.”

We’re 29 days out from the wedding and the drama is high. I knew it would pop up eventually, I just didn’t know where it would come from. I suppose I shouldn’t have been so surprised.

M K 2/27/22 M K 2/27/22

A Departure from Social Media is Justified and Imminent

It’s time for me to depart Facebook and Instagram. I’m hoping to use my newfound “free-time” to read, write, edit, and continue using the first amendment to speak a healthy, sustainable, thriving future into existence for all of us.

M K 1/22/22 M K 1/22/22

New Year, Same Crippling Anxieties!

Another trip around the sun and we’re still pumping billions of tons of CO2 into the atmosphere. The Titanic is sinking, but we could bail ourselves out if we tried.

M K 12/14/21 M K 12/14/21

Dismantling Female Sexual Shame and Stigma

Supposedly we revere new mothers in the U.S. I say “supposedly” because at the same time, we shame women who enjoy sex. More than that, we’ve committed millions of women in the U.S. to sexual slavery and have granted more rights to dead bodies and gun owners that we have to the female half of the population.

M K 11/16/21 M K 11/16/21

I Am Selfish For Wanting Children

No matter how well-intentioned I am in my desire to provide a stable, loving environment for a child, the desire itself is fundamentally selfish. I am inescapably selfish.

M K 11/6/21 M K 11/6/21

My Mother and I Finally See Eye-to-Eye

The day my mother came to understand my parental hesitation redefined our relationship.

M K 10/24/21 M K 10/24/21

The Clock Ticks On and the Pressure Builds

Ah, parents want what’s best for their children. But even more than that, they want grandchildren.

M K 10/14/21 M K 10/14/21

I Have Some BIG Feelings About Social Media and Parenting.

We all, collectively as a society, need to tap the brakes on streaming our children online. Stalking and harassment are serious threats. Unrealistic expectations from social media contribute to poor mental health. I think it is unwise to subject our most vulnerable family members to these platforms and document their everyday existence, broadcasting it to strangers they may never meet. It’s just like the Truman Show. We should strive to do a better job protecting the privacy of children. Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

M K 9/21/21 M K 9/21/21

Procreating Right Now is Unwise. That Does NOT Make Parents Unwise People.

New parents are brave. Our society is cruel. Absolutely everything about the United States should change to better promote the welfare of humanity and of humanity-yet-to-come.

M K 9/10/21 M K 9/10/21

It’s Rather Crucial I Express Some Gratitude

After more than a year-and-a-half away from my family and friends, I finally saw them in person for two celebratory weekends in a row. My heart is full and my eyes spill happy tears.

M K 8/19/21 M K 8/19/21

Jack and I Are Evacuees of the Monument Fire. I Can’t Imagine Parenting in this Chaos.

It didn’t take long for us to become climate refugees. Perhaps I’ll never have the strength to mother during such dangerous and uncertain circumstances.

M K 8/13/21 M K 8/13/21

An Old Friend and New Mom Told Me Not to Give Birth. How Could I Possibly Respond?

A new mom told me not to follow in her footsteps. I’m still grappling with the tangle of emotions her advice stirred.

M K 7/31/21 M K 7/31/21

I Have Baby Fever, but this Earth Fever Can’t Sustain Human Life

My soul found its better half. I’m eager and ready to grow a new soul with my husband and welcome our first baby into the world. But my brain resists my heart every single day.

M K 7/15/21 M K 7/15/21

My Life is Perfection (I swear! I Can’t Believe it Either!) But I’m Constantly Grieving.

I have everything I’d ever dreamed of and more. Why am I constantly crying?